Dear Blog,
From the previous post, I shared that Jia Yan is my first ever love. She deserved a place in my heart. The things that she did in the relationship were so significant enough to be remembered for life.
During the Christmas Season in the year 2000, she asked me to name five to ten friends of mine. I gave her the names without suspecting what is she going to do with the names. To my surprise, she handmade the gifts and cards to be sent to each of my friends.
She met me nearby my place and we went to deliver her handmade gifts and cards to each of my friends. We had a lot of fun delivering the gifts and she even wrote a card to thank my mother for raising me up. Such a sweet person she is. It is something which she did from the bottom of my heart and I really appreciated what she did and it will always remain in my heart.
At the end of the day, we broke up due to differences in race and religion and personal issues with each other and both of us moved on with our lives after that.
Jia Yan - If you happen to read this, thank you for being a part of my life once and you will always be remembered for the rest of my life. All the best in your studies and your future endeavours :)
Till we meet again blog.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Neo Jia Yan (Part 1)
Dear Blog,
This entry is dedicated to Neo Jia Yan. I did not expect that I will type an entry dedicated just for her. I dreamt of her yesterday night. It was a very short dream of me and her buying some stuffs from bookshop and had a short conversation with her and then I woke up from my dream. Feeling glad that she appeared in my dreams, I just smiled and memories from the past kept flooding in. For starters, she is my first ever love.
Back in 1999, when Internet Relay Chat or rather IRC was rather popular, I met Jia Yan online in badminton channel. That time I was 18 whereas she was 13. We chatted online almost everyday and I started to fall for her as she was bubbly and cheerful. Soon, I created my own channel in IRC and called it 'crazyworld' and made her the co-owner of the channel and gave her the highest access. I expressed my feelings for her online but she told me that she has no feelings for me. But I told her that I will persevere and determine to win her heart.
In late 1999, Singapore Chinese Girls' School was having a openhouse and I thought that it is my chance to pay her a surprise visit at her school. Luckily for me, I knew some of the girls in Singapore Chinese Girls' School as I went to watch badminton tournament to support my friend. I walked around the school hoping to bump into someone I knew who can eventually lead me to Jia Yan. So I waited outside Sciences Laboratory. She came outside for a while and chatted with me. In the end, she needed to go inside. Although it was a brief five minutes meetup, I was happy with the outcome.
She disappeared from IRC for a while and both of us got on with our lives. I found out that she found herself a boyfriend back then and I was happy for her.
In March 2000, she came back to my channel and confided in me that she was not happy with her current relationship and she did not know what to do about it. I told her to salvage the relationship as I did not want her to be unhappy. But what I did not know is she is slowly falling for me. She would use her ICQ to send SMS to my handphone and I would reply back to her ICQ. Till now, I did not know how did that work but it did not matter at that time.
During May-June 2000, I was involved in Engineering Freshmen Orientation Camp so much till I did not have the time to go online to chat with her. Naturally, she missed me but she understood that I was involved in my school's activities. On the other side, her relationship with that guy was ending and there is no use of salvaging of the relationship anymore.
So when I got back home after the orientation camp, she messaged me this 'Buddy... You know how much I missed you? Welcome back home'. I felt touched when I read the message in ICQ. Then I replied her to come to my channel to chat and catch up on lost time. The feeling was great and I felt extremely happy.
She told me that her relationship with that guy had ended due to some reasons which I forgot. I asked her not to be sad as she is still young and can find another guy easily. She said that it is okie and she felt happy just by talking to me. Naturally, I cannot take any hints as I am pretty dumb with it. I need the person to tell me straightaway what is she trying to say but she refused to tell me the reason so I am pretty fine with it.
She asked me whether I still like her and then I said yes. Since she asked me that question, I better take the chance of asking her again whether our feelings are mutual. She said yes. I was surprised then but nevertheless I am happy back then.
In late July 2000, she agreed to be my girlfriend. I was damn estatic and was jumping for joy. After one year of wooing and chasing after her, I finally succeeded.
We arranged for a meet-up. It was our first arranged meet-up after meeting her in Singapore Chinese Girls' School. We met in Popular at Orchard MRT Station as she needed to get some stuffs from the bookshop (come to think of it.. sound like my dream). Hope that it was just a mere coincidence at all.
After that, we went out and I sent her back home.
Will continue next time. Till then blog.
This entry is dedicated to Neo Jia Yan. I did not expect that I will type an entry dedicated just for her. I dreamt of her yesterday night. It was a very short dream of me and her buying some stuffs from bookshop and had a short conversation with her and then I woke up from my dream. Feeling glad that she appeared in my dreams, I just smiled and memories from the past kept flooding in. For starters, she is my first ever love.
Back in 1999, when Internet Relay Chat or rather IRC was rather popular, I met Jia Yan online in badminton channel. That time I was 18 whereas she was 13. We chatted online almost everyday and I started to fall for her as she was bubbly and cheerful. Soon, I created my own channel in IRC and called it 'crazyworld' and made her the co-owner of the channel and gave her the highest access. I expressed my feelings for her online but she told me that she has no feelings for me. But I told her that I will persevere and determine to win her heart.
In late 1999, Singapore Chinese Girls' School was having a openhouse and I thought that it is my chance to pay her a surprise visit at her school. Luckily for me, I knew some of the girls in Singapore Chinese Girls' School as I went to watch badminton tournament to support my friend. I walked around the school hoping to bump into someone I knew who can eventually lead me to Jia Yan. So I waited outside Sciences Laboratory. She came outside for a while and chatted with me. In the end, she needed to go inside. Although it was a brief five minutes meetup, I was happy with the outcome.
She disappeared from IRC for a while and both of us got on with our lives. I found out that she found herself a boyfriend back then and I was happy for her.
In March 2000, she came back to my channel and confided in me that she was not happy with her current relationship and she did not know what to do about it. I told her to salvage the relationship as I did not want her to be unhappy. But what I did not know is she is slowly falling for me. She would use her ICQ to send SMS to my handphone and I would reply back to her ICQ. Till now, I did not know how did that work but it did not matter at that time.
During May-June 2000, I was involved in Engineering Freshmen Orientation Camp so much till I did not have the time to go online to chat with her. Naturally, she missed me but she understood that I was involved in my school's activities. On the other side, her relationship with that guy was ending and there is no use of salvaging of the relationship anymore.
So when I got back home after the orientation camp, she messaged me this 'Buddy... You know how much I missed you? Welcome back home'. I felt touched when I read the message in ICQ. Then I replied her to come to my channel to chat and catch up on lost time. The feeling was great and I felt extremely happy.
She told me that her relationship with that guy had ended due to some reasons which I forgot. I asked her not to be sad as she is still young and can find another guy easily. She said that it is okie and she felt happy just by talking to me. Naturally, I cannot take any hints as I am pretty dumb with it. I need the person to tell me straightaway what is she trying to say but she refused to tell me the reason so I am pretty fine with it.
She asked me whether I still like her and then I said yes. Since she asked me that question, I better take the chance of asking her again whether our feelings are mutual. She said yes. I was surprised then but nevertheless I am happy back then.
In late July 2000, she agreed to be my girlfriend. I was damn estatic and was jumping for joy. After one year of wooing and chasing after her, I finally succeeded.
We arranged for a meet-up. It was our first arranged meet-up after meeting her in Singapore Chinese Girls' School. We met in Popular at Orchard MRT Station as she needed to get some stuffs from the bookshop (come to think of it.. sound like my dream). Hope that it was just a mere coincidence at all.
After that, we went out and I sent her back home.
Will continue next time. Till then blog.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Teenagers Nowadays
Dear Blog,
Teenagers nowadays are getting from bad to worse. Is it because they watch too much movies or they have liberal thinkings nowadays?
Once I saw a couple showing their affections in public. In fact, way too affectionate for my likings. Imagine caressing each other in the bus and they are in the world of their own without observing that other people are actually watching them. Even saw some of their buttons been unbuttoned in the first place. It is like watching a free show in Singapore.
I feel that liberalisation got its limits. You can call me traditional kind of guy but I believe that anything that you do must have a limit. I can be considered liberal as my thinking is not old-fashioned. I do accept that society do change but I feel that moral values should not change at all.
Personally, I feel that society will turn for the worse for our next generation. Even this generation that teenagers are having sex freely and have multiple sex partners so I fear the worse for our next generation. It used to be guys who are seeking for sex partners but now girls are actively seeking sex partners. Been wondering what had happened to the society nowadays.
That's all for today. Till we meet again blog :)
Teenagers nowadays are getting from bad to worse. Is it because they watch too much movies or they have liberal thinkings nowadays?
Once I saw a couple showing their affections in public. In fact, way too affectionate for my likings. Imagine caressing each other in the bus and they are in the world of their own without observing that other people are actually watching them. Even saw some of their buttons been unbuttoned in the first place. It is like watching a free show in Singapore.
I feel that liberalisation got its limits. You can call me traditional kind of guy but I believe that anything that you do must have a limit. I can be considered liberal as my thinking is not old-fashioned. I do accept that society do change but I feel that moral values should not change at all.
Personally, I feel that society will turn for the worse for our next generation. Even this generation that teenagers are having sex freely and have multiple sex partners so I fear the worse for our next generation. It used to be guys who are seeking for sex partners but now girls are actively seeking sex partners. Been wondering what had happened to the society nowadays.
That's all for today. Till we meet again blog :)
Life
Dear Blog,
How do you define life? Are we really enjoying life or are we suffering in this world? There are different perspective on the meaning of life in the first place.
My friend used to tell me that we are born into this world to suffer. I thought to myself 'Maybe yes.. maybe no'. We live a very short life on earth so why bother to think on the negative side since we live a short life. We must be happy and be positive thinking to move ahead in life. There is no use of being pessismistic at all in the first place if you get what I mean.
Personally, I feel that we should be grateful that we are given one life to live in this world to experience what is life really about. Some people abused their life by committing suicide just because they met with some mishaps and they thought that committing suicide is the only escape route for them. They do not appreciate the true essence of life at all.
What is the moral of the story? Life is short, play hard.
Till we meet again Blog.
How do you define life? Are we really enjoying life or are we suffering in this world? There are different perspective on the meaning of life in the first place.
My friend used to tell me that we are born into this world to suffer. I thought to myself 'Maybe yes.. maybe no'. We live a very short life on earth so why bother to think on the negative side since we live a short life. We must be happy and be positive thinking to move ahead in life. There is no use of being pessismistic at all in the first place if you get what I mean.
Personally, I feel that we should be grateful that we are given one life to live in this world to experience what is life really about. Some people abused their life by committing suicide just because they met with some mishaps and they thought that committing suicide is the only escape route for them. They do not appreciate the true essence of life at all.
What is the moral of the story? Life is short, play hard.
Till we meet again Blog.
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